I’m happy to be home. Happy to be back with my family and Dalton more than anything, really. Other than that, a few ups and downs here and there in life but learning is something that never stops. I’m really fighting hard to break out of this shell of immaturity. There have been loads of hard knocks along the way and i’m sure quite a few more to come. It sucks in the moment but...
The 3 big written papers are over. The OSCEs are over and though i’m worried about the VPCS MCQ to determine whether or not my summer plans are ruined, i’m feeling good because i think passing everything else should not be an issue. My mother messages me every day to check on me and I know that without her prayers every morning, I wouldn’t have had the strength to stay up till...
Go the distance
I feel like i’m reliving that hype from exam season over christmas. As of today, that’s 4 exams down and 4 to go. Go The Distance is officially my exam time boost and inspiration. The prayer offers from my mom and those dear to me are holding me strong through this period. I’m worried i might have failed VPCS, but it doesn’t matter now because what’s done is done...
I think everybody’s feeling the bite. And I am extremely extremely concerned that I may have to come back for a resit.
It really is a beautiful friday afternoon. One of the earliest and most sunny fridays in spring and i’m indoors at the vet school at 5pm working through exam questions and stressing over a topic i performed best in last semester. I need a really big confidence boost right now. December was tough but it feels tiny compared to this.
I guess today would be one of those times to grit my teeth and summon the extra strength within my body. The clock is ticking and I want to regret nothing.
My butt has been planted in the vet school library for the last 4.5 hours. I didn’t move and i’m so super proud of myself! Yes, i took breaks and such but i covered neurophysiology from top to toe. I guess that and all the revision from this morning constitutes to a good day’s revision. I shall be satisfied now and not utter a single complaint in this post. Something which...
From cumbria in the north of england
Nothing much new. I miss you.
I’m feeling the jitters for this one exam tomorrow! After scraping the pass in december, i’m determinted to make this physiology paper better. It’s just an exam aaron…
Fully fledged into exam mode. With a break for easter.. This is tricksy cos i’m not used to having finals at midyear. It really is a year of firsts for me. More importantly, i’ve been offcially fed with all the info i need to complete year 1 of vet school.. it feels like only yesterday I just stepped in here. I’m tired and kind of weary. Unfortunately there’s no time for...
I feel like i’m running out of steam. The last official day of lessons is tomorrow and there are no more new things to learn for the year.. Which is great, isn’t it? All the energy can be converted into revision and consolidation. And I really REALLY hope that happens and that my efficiency WILL increase once lessons cease. I just need to do well. I need to pass. It matters not how...
Physio field camp
I’ve been on this physiology rush all week for the term two exam in 10 days. So many topics all squished into the last 3 weeks of class. that’s just not cool.. but if it’s been done before, there’s no reason why I shouldn’t be able to do it too! Ended friday with a team jumping lesson with dawn. I must say, it made me feel good to grit my teeth and ride whatever was...
I am feeling so jammed up today and wound up because of how little I have done. I just don’t understand why. I can’t stand it. It’s really not anyone’s fault but mine today.
The SAF 7 core values are:
Today, I saw the 3rd core value in action. And i’m proud to know that i’m doing something right.
Five weeks down, three to go. Time is flying way too fast.. I am dreading the nights coming up to exam readiness. But i’ll be home in 3 months.
it paid off
Oh me goodness
Pretty down day today.. not much done and Brian had to leave early. But that’s okay! Just praying that tonight I can rest well.
the big picture
Lol. I’m feeling.. pretty good. That feeling when you feel like you’ve got the more or less big picture of what you’re supposed to know in a topic, the feeling of everything linking together. It takes a while but at this point, i actually feel psyched to review my first semester notes this afternoon to make the big picture even clearer. It’s times like these that make the...
School’s been in full swing a few days now. And quite frankly i’m feeling loaded already but i’m not gonna whine about it here. Tonight was just one of those nights where.. it’s just not working out. Too tired I guess.. so enough for today. It was SUPER cold on the way back from the library.
I still remember
I still remember that first time I had a horrible day in school. I remember being conscious about it and forcing myself to take it well. I leaned against the wall of the long corridor and breathed. I guess there’ll be many more of those to come. But for now, lunch! And a practical class in 4 hours.
It’s great to be back in school. Had the first set of lessons today and I think so far so good. Just a little lethargic this afternoon and I think i’ll have an early night. I realise that life is really too quiet here sometimes. That’s why it’s different from home. I miss being surrounded by my loved ones and animals.
Glasgow has its beautiful moments. Bright golden sunlight and cool air which makes it feel almost perfect. It’s gloomier than sunny Singapore though. The grass is a duller shade of green and the sun isn’t nearly as intense. That’s the first thing I realised when I touched down. Bright green grass :) I’m really glad I came home. It is that one month in a year we go a...
With love from Dubai
This place is really quite amazing and I’m only in transit. One day maybe I’ll explore the city and watch a horse race here! Anyway, I’m a horrible traveller. I am so lucky celine happens to be on the same flight as I am. We don’t talk much or anything but company makes the 6.5 hour waiting time much more bearable. An hour and a half to the next takeoff. Thinking about...
I step out of home and leave happy. Happy at the prospect of a fun morning, a workless, worry free day with my parents and an evening of carols. Darn, I’ve forgotten my contacts! Ah well. At least I’ve got a specs band at the NEC thank goodness! Walking to the bus stop, basking in bright morning sunlight and realising what a perfect morning it is. And how little sun there will be for 5...
I touched down exactly two weeks ago. And in that two weeks, I have done and learned so much at the academy. At first it was weird. But i soon realised how happy i am to be home and busy at the stables because I just love it there so much. It’s hard work mucking out, riding and being a groom all at the same time and i’ve completely switched from vet school mode back to NEC mode....
The semester is over. And it feels pretty good.. Tomorrow i fly home for a short christmas break before returning here to tackle another semester of hard work. Is school easy? No. And i was shit scared for those first few weeks. The ups, the downs, the laughter and the tears have made me more confident. I think I can do this. I think i can go the distance. Who knew? That it really is possible to...
a year ago?
In the flurry of exam week, I totally didn’t realise that: 1) Monday 3rd Dec was my 1 year ORD mark 2) Tuesday 4th Dec was when I organised last year’s class gathering And slightly over a year ago, this new blog was born. One year suddenly seems a very VERY short time ago!
To look beyond the glory is the hardest part
It’s an uphill slope But I won’t lose hope Till I go the distance And my journey is complete.
Keep calm and study on. This does look really lame when I type it out. Anyway. Trying slowly.. In other news, missing dalton and damiro.
I should be studying anatomy but. Thinking a lot about how far i’ve come this short 3 months and how much I learned and grown. It’s a start! But that life I left behind this year and at NUS high just feels like it only happened just one short phase ago. *shrug* Not sure if i’m making sense here but. Back to anatomy! Crest of greater tubercle…..
It’s two weeks to the exams and we are still getting lessons. I’m gonna be so sour after tomorrow. I’m getting very little work done.
TGIF. I’m quite surprised at how a foozeball game after dinner turned into 4 hours in the common room just having fun with the friends. And it’s made me realise that i’ve been trying to have fun and let loose at the right time but tonight’s one of the few times I actually did. I’m really glad for today. At one point TGIF was OSIF because of a heavy anatomy day where...
Under a month to the exams. For the first time in 3 years.. I have no idea if i’m doing this right. I just really need a big kick and a confidence boost right now.
Another one of those days where everything feels like it’s just falling to pieces.
Love your God, your neighbour and yourself
Love yourself. Too easy and too difficult. It made me realise how much i wished for perfection in my life and yet, maybe to pause and realise that even though it’s far from perfect, it’s still okay. That I’m still doing okay. I know it could be worse. But it’s a fine line to lapsing into laziness. Oh dear this is a tough one. But for now, i’ll just remember that...
So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and...
The perks of being a wallflower was actually a pretty good movie. Sometimes, I read a book, and I think am the people in the book Though in this case, I wish i were as lucky as the people in the book. But there’s no time to stop. I need to fight on; no matter what.
I’m just so absolutely disgusted with myself tonight.